I'm on a hiatus from myspace as of now,
I realized there's 9394824 better ways I could be wasting my time.
Such as beating Ocarina of Time again. haha.

Oh and I got that new journal
imstayinghere

so this is the last post to this journal...
wow it's a little scary wrapping up 3 whole years of my life.
I can say one thing for sure,
they were the best 3 years of my life. hands down.

i'm ready to start over though.
I need to learn to let go of the past.

<3

if anyone would like to come visit me from home (or elsewhere),
they're more than welcome to come here.
I have an air mattress for you to sleep on,
and I have a gazillion dollars in food plan money to feed you.
I could really use the comfort that only old friends can bring lately.
please?
:)


oh and this is the freaking anthem of my life right now...

And sometimes when you're on you're really fucking on
And your friends they sing along and they love you
But the lows are so extreme that the good seems fucking cheap
And it teases you for weeks in its absence
But you'll fight and you'll make it through
You'll fake it if you have to
And you'll show up for work with a smile
And you'll be be better you'll be smarter
More grown up and a better daughter
Or son and a real good friend
And you'll be awake and you'll be alert
You'll be positive though it hurts
And you'll laugh and embrace all your friends
And you'll be a real good listener
You'll be honest you'll be brave
You'll be handsome you'll be beautiful
You'll be happy

Your ship may be coming in
You're weak but not giving in
To the cries and the wails of the valley below
Your ship may be coming in
You're weak but not giving in
And you'll fight it you'll go out fighting all of them...

I'm considering making a new journal,
I just feel like this chapter of my life is kind of done for.
I live in a new place, with new friends, and I pretty much have a new life.

Everything here in muncie has still been wonderful.
The last two nights have been filled with friends at the mt cup,
trips to play at elliot park and just hanging out at the village green.

Life is so perfect here,
I hope everyone is as happy as I am.
:)

Oh and if the new journal thing does happen,
I'll let all of you know.
haha.
ily.
<3

So I know this is going to sound super gay,
but i've had this crazy urge the last week or so.
I just feel so creative and I want to make something so bad,
but it's like I can't decide on what medium to use at all.
Pictures? Painting? Words? Drawing? Poetry? Music?

I don't know, it's a weird frustrating feeling,
anyone else ever get this feeling?

busy. busy. busy.
that's how i've been lately.
class. work. sleep. eat. friends. class. work...
I feel like i've been constantly going for the past two weeks or so,
but in a way I kind of like it.
Keeping busy keeps me happy.

This weekend will be a nice chance to get away from the busy muncie life,
I'll be coming home for Heather and Jarrod's birthdays. Yay!

I can't wait for fall to get here.
I want chilly weather with hats, coats, mittens, and scarfs.
I want cuddling to keep warm and sharing pockets.
I want hot coco and cute village green shows.
mmmmm. I can't wait.



Goodbye to sleep,
I think this staying up is exactly what I need
Well take apart your head
Take apart the counting, and the flock it has bred
Goodbye to love,
Well it's alright I'll push you up
Right against the wall
Take apart your head
Chew it up and swallow it
You're brought back but you're running
I'll find sleep in the end tonight
I can't shake this little feeling
I'll never get anything right
I'm on my own, never say anything right
I'm on my own, never say anything right
I'm on my own, never say anything right
I'm on my own, never say anything right

Brittany's post about classes,
and latest muncie news inspired me to make one,
I need to go to bed, but hopefully this won't take tooo long.

M/W
Eng 104-
The teacher seems really young to be a prof, maybe 27? The class seems kind of cool but kind of lame at the same time. I think it's one of those "you can choose to make it fun" classes. Basically, we examine subcultures and write five different essays about one each of us pick. Im having trouble thinking of a subculture that im really interested in, but not involved in though. Maybe skateboarders, that'd be fun.
Journ 104-
Another really young looking prof. He kind of seems like an ass, and dosen't really seem to "get" my thoughts and opinons that I throw out in class. He just does that kind of shrug agree move on kind of thing. I guess theres a lot of writing for that class, which kind of makes me wish I wouldnt have taken english at the same time.

T/R
Graphic Arts-
It should pretty much be a breeze for me, I mean when is graphic arts not a breeze? Plus I already have some points with the teacher because he knows im in the Graphic Arts Unlimited club, and that I worked at a newspaper this summer. Which i'm hoping will boost my grade a bit. The class seems fun though, and having a graphic arts minor would always be something that would be nice to fall back on if the ad thing dosen't work out. I like doing that stuff, it just comes so natural for me.
Phsych 100-
It's one of those huge lecture classes with close to 300 people. The prof seems just okay. Not mean, but not very nice either. Lots of notes readong and tests. ugh.

W
Technology & Soceity-
It's a night class but so far it seems wonderful. I guess everything is hands on in his class. Today we did a fun little experiment with the evolution of writing. One group had to roll out playdough a write a sentence in it, one had to use a quill pen, one used a printing press...etc. It seems fun and next week I get to make an igloo!

The Friday all I have is English 104 again which is hella nice.
Godddd I have the hiccups so bad and I cant get rid of them.
I bet im driving nicole crazy, shes trying to sleep. haha.

Life in muncie has been just as wonderful as expected though.
I've seen almost everyone i've wanted to see,
I've had a couple late nights at the MT cup.
I've gone to a couple of shows.
I've walked around campus aimlessly.
I've hung out a The Village Green bunches.
I've tons of new friends already.
It's just been really great.
I really really do love it here.

Oh and working night staff is way fun too.
All I do is sit around and watch movies,
and they pay me 6.75 for it, its the best job i've had thus far.

Aside from my boy being 287498375 miles away,
and that whole thing being a really mixed up situation right now.

I am really happy here.
I'm glad to be back.
:D

I just kind of woke up in a weird mood today,
not really a bad mood, or even a good mood, just a weird one.
I feel completely comfortable, but yet not comfortable at all,
I feel excited, and nervous for the exact same things,
I feel awesome and terrible at the same time.

I'm just really not sure what it is I want today.
Hopefully a little wine tonight will clear some things up,
because i'm not sure of much of anything today,
and that, is a terrible feeling.
:\

holy shit it's been a hell of a week.
we moved in on sunday and started working right away.
Me and the rest of the opening committee (about 15 girls)
had so much shit to get done before the move in days.
we basically worked everyday from 9am to 9pm.
It was pretty much ridiculous, but we got it all done.

yesterday the premium plan people moved in,
we all met at freaking 7:45 in the morning,
basically, we had to push carts with people crap in them until five that night,
annnnd theres no air conditioning here so it was hella hot the whole time.
Nicole Harris moved in with me though, which is fun. :)

today was just about the exact same thing as yesterday,
except it was standard plan people so there were twice as many of them.
All 500 residents are all moved in and settled down now though,
so it's all okay I suppose.
I super sweaty and sick though. haha.

However, the new dining area here in my dorm is freaking amazing!
It has all of my favorite food, nice lounges, flat screen tv's, fireplaces,
not too mention it's freaking huuuge!
I love it, lots!

Tomorrow starts in with the normal muncie days again,
you know when im not a slave to the dorm and can actually leave and see people. haha.
I can't wait i've missed everyone so much, and I have so much to catch up on.

I still love it here.
:D

warped tour kicked my ass, and rocked my face off.
simply put, it was fucking wonderful!
It really was a good way to end the summer.

Only 5 days left until i'll be back in muncie,
and I havn't packed one single thing. ugh.

I think were going to have a little get together thing on friday,
before brittany nicole and i take off for the school year.
everyone should come.
:D

One of the many reasons I love muncie so much...



hahaha.
wwjd.

today has been wonderful so far.
It was my last day of working at KPC! woo!
Matt Swanson (my boss) gave me an awwwesome letter of recommendation.
It said something about how i'm very creative, hard working,
and that I pay great attention to detail.
Then he invited me to come back and work for them whenever I want,
I think I might over christmas break, make a fast 1,500 or so.
Then I came home and i've just been in a great mood since.
I need to clean my room, and get changed before sean gets out of work.
Then were driving to Goshen to play some d&d with the boys.
ahhh, it'll be nice to finally get to enjoy summer, haha.
:D

I hate how no one really write on here anymore, boo.
If you don't already know, i've recently started playing the cello,
and while it's only been a week, and I can hardly play anything yet
I absolutely LOVE it, by far the best/funnest instrument i've ever played.
Except I bought strings today, and broke two of them while tuning, yowch.
Which sucks hard considering they cost so damn much 80.00!
I've been working half days lately, which is nice.
I told my boss the last day I can work is July 26th (one week!)
My rooms a disaster and it's getting cleaned as soon as I finish this.
I have a new tattoo hanging out with the other three,
it's real pretty and says "Love, Laugh, Live" I like it lots.
I'm suuuper anxious about warped tour, and cedar point!
And i've realized that making better friends with heather
was probably one of the best things to come out of this summer.
Whew, I think thats it, now to start cleaning.

So I found this in my journal from like three years ago. haha.
Lets do it again?

You name three people. I have to pick one to push off a cliff, one to marry, and one to have sex with.

ugh. I have to work tomorrow morning,
meaning I have to get up at like 5:40,
annnd I can't sleep. it's terrible.

this weekend was fun though.
Thursday during the day sucked,
Sean and I got in a retarded fight.
Then went on a walk, which was rrreally nice.
It's good to know that we can still act like couple we use to be sometimes.

Friday was amazing.
I just kind of laid around being bored all day,
then Heather txt'd me and said she wanted to hang out.
I went to Ft wayne and we had a picnic under this big statue thing,
then we ran around and caught lightning bugs.
We decided to go walk around downtown ft wayne,
and got holla'd @ by like 83674384 mexicans.
After that we went to a Fiesta, and danced to crazy Mexican polka music.
We decided we were probably going to get killed if we didnt leave,
so then we went to this sweet fountain and played in it. haha.
Then these two mexican guys came up to us and started macking on us big time.
Heather and I pretty much ran away. hahaha.

Today was real boring, and kind of a bummer.
Mom, Matt, Thanh, and I all went and watched the kville fireworks.
Which was a lot fun, and reminded me of being a little kid again.
I hope I never grow up. haha.

So it was a good weekend, but tomorrow is sunday which means back to work.
This week should be an easy week though, I work Sun-Tues, and then I have wed off.
Annnnd I only have to work half days on both Thursday and Friday.

If you want to do something on any day except Tuesday or Thursday txt me or something.
:D

im so bored,
and have no plans tonight.
who wants to do something!?
txt me.
:D

fuck.

sweet jesus.
I think I just suffered through the most awkward two hours of my life.

oh my god.
who knew ebay was so addicting?!
It's even worse than myspace, geeeze!
I've been checking it every ten minutes for the past two hours.
Note to self:
NEVER bid on anything else on ebay ever again.
this could become a rrreally bad habit.

It's been awhile.
hahah man, staind is stillll sweet.
but really, I havn't updated in a couple of weeks,
so here's the low down of my life right now.

1. I'm rich byatch!
2. Matt dosen't have cancer anymore!
3. Hanging out with Heather Fett again is amazing.
4. I'm buying a cello! (unless I find something cooler to spend $300+ on, haha)
5. I'm buying sean a micro korg.
6. Kendallville has it's way of sucking people in, I've noticed this a lot lately.
7. I work too much for it being my summer vacation, but I don't really mind.
8. Apple fixed my computer in ONE day and sent it back!
9. My pants are starting to rip in the crotch.
10. Carly, lets make cookies!

:)

meeeeh.